*This post was first published on Indiaanya. 2021 was the worst year in all my 39 years on this planet. It ripped me apart in more ways than one. It tore through my defences. It attacked my marriage and children. But, worst of all – it disintegrated my faith. It left me adrift and lonely,…
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What a Season of Loss Taught Me About Grief
*This post was first published on Indiaanya. Grief and sadness come to all of us. None of us are beyond its scope. It meets us on the road of life, sometimes blindsiding us in its suddenness, urgency, and magnitude. It leaves us floundering in a morass of pain and despair, weighed down until we feel…
Desperate Longing
Psalm 130 is a heart cry. From the depths of desperation and pain, the psalmist pens a prayer that has echoed the heart cries of thousands of God’s children down the ages. I love this psalm for its honesty and transparency. This prayer lays it all out there and pleads, this is me—sin-riddled and depraved—now…
Even If
My heart is so heavy. Oh Lord, I don’t understand the terrible finality of death. I don’t understand Your will. Why do some live and others don’t? Why are some prayers answered while others aren’t? Some healed; others not. Sorrow and anguish tear me apart. I’m sinking Lord. Now I see what a terrible evil…
Pausing To Thank
‘Five things I never realised I was grateful for before’ That was what I needed to write about. And it was probably the most challenging subject I’ve encountered so far – at least for me personally. After days of procrastinating, I finally realised that I had to sit and do it, and be ruthlessly honest…
The Solitary Journey
The path is narrow treacherous, slippery. The road is long arduous, lonely. The yawning abyss – dark, menacing. The shadowed valley – murky, disturbing. Eyes downcast; heart’s discouraged. Thoughts dismayed; soul’s disheartened. Suddenly, a shaft of light breaks through the fog. Myths and legends, swirl in the mists. White spires, golden halls “and beyond them…
Last Time
It will be The last time Pain courses through my veins Despair drags down my soul Grief rips apart my heart It will be The last time Fear chains my mind Anger fuels my words Doubt shakes my faith It will be The last time Shame washes over me Guilt hinders my progress Disobedience robs…
I Am David
Some books leave an indelible impression. They stay with you, lingering in your thoughts and dreams, filling you with wonderment and quiet delight. I Am David by Anne Holm falls into that category. Though technically a children’s book, it is that charming blend that appeals to adults as well. And I feel, sometimes, such books…
The Plague Song
Help, Lord God, help in this trouble! I think death is at the door. Stand before me, Christ, for You have overcome him. To You I cry: If it is Your will, take out the dart that wounds me, nor lets me have an hour’s rest or repose. Will You, however, that death take me…
Surrounded
The day is past. The night has come. And in the darkness cloaked silence those thoughts come crawling out, circling, gnawing, and preying on me. The ones that were too ghastly to utter in the light of day. The ones that menacingly threatened to meet me in the dark of night as they flitted past….
A Hope-filled Perspective
Interesting thought popped into my mind today as it is wont to do from time to time. The Lord works in mysterious ways after all! I read this very very familiar portion in 1 Samuel 16:7, But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look at his appearance or at his physical stature, because I…
On Being Pruned…
Pruning is never fun. I’m not discussing gardening activities but rather the spiritual season. The funny thing is, I didn’t even recognise it for what it was. I just assumed I was being bombarded by trials and knew I was barely staying afloat, let alone swimming against the current (I’ve got all my metaphors mixed…
Don’t Believe What You See
“For we walk by faith, not by sight.” II Corinthians 5:7 As Christians we’ve heard this phrase so many times it sometimes loses its power and significance. I’m guilty of this complacency, but recently after hearing this song, I’ve been challenged to live by faith and not believe what my eyes tell me. My eyes…
New Year Resolutions
The last day of the year. A time to reminisce. A time for nostalgia. To sing auld lang syne as I usher in a new year. But also a time to make some decisions. To identify what truly matters, and pursue it wholeheartedly. Resolutions are passé. I’ve made them before. And forgotten them within a…
Reawakening Hope
Opposing views Angry words Devastating arguments Raised voices Disagreement Dissension Disdain Dislike Heartache Pain Hurt Despair Relationships wrecked. It’s a mountain, Lord, My heart cries. My spirit is weary My soul wilts I need some hope. I need some respite. So, restore; Revive. Slowly Quietly A Voice speaks…
On Taking Heart…
What a year 2015 is turning out to be! The CP is turning one, MD is facing slander and office politics on a personal level and on the home front – yikes! What a gargantuan mess! I’m not even asking “why” any more. Just – Lord, what good is this going to bring? I mean,…
On Blissful Realisations…
Faced by rock, impregnable, cold, I claw and clamour, wondering – ‘Where do I even begin looking for hope?’ At the door, are despair and anguish; So I clutch at straws – ‘He has promised after all, can it get worse?’ Finally, in desperation, I clench the Word, staring blankly, eyes clouded, by misery. Until!…
On Learning To Wait…
It seems like I’ve come back full circle to a crucial lesson in my walk with God; a lesson that I thought I’d learned. Surprisingly, I’m finding myriad facets to the single issue; like a kaleidoscope, every time I come back to it, I see a new pattern! Which brings us to my pet peeve…
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