My heart is so heavy.
Oh Lord, I don’t understand
the terrible finality of death.

I don’t understand Your will.
Why do some live
and others don’t?

Why are some prayers answered
while others aren’t?
Some healed; others not.

Sorrow and anguish
tear me apart.
I’m sinking Lord.

Now I see what a terrible evil
death is.
And why that insatiable, vicious thief had to be defeated.

Because of the cross, death no longer has the final word.
There is life in all its beauty and joy.
The grave is not a termination.

Father, help me cling to You.
Even when everything I see
screams that I should let go.

Especially when.

To whom else can I go, Lord?
Myself? Nothingness?
You alone have the words of life!

So, though my heart is leaden with sorrow
yet I will choose You.
For only with You, is it well with my soul.


- R. D. P.

* This song has been playing on repeat today – https://youtu.be/B6fA35Ved-Y Hope you are blessed.

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