“I heard you in the secret place of the storm. In the secret place among the unspoken things, there am I.”* So I’d reached the point of no return. In the silence, stripped of all platitudes, finally it was just Him and I. No pretence. No highfalutin nonsense. Just the plain truth. He listened patiently…
On Hitting Rock Bottom…
One of the things that changed over the past few months was the way I saw God. Up till this moment, my faith in Him had been unshaken. Even in times of testing, I’d always had the underlying belief that God would be good to me. “Good” obviously, as I saw “goodness” – with things…
On Not Being Alone…
Through the lows, I’ve gone from one random thought to the next. Emotions and feelings swinging wildly like a pendulum, but always in silence. There is no love. No desire to serve. No hope. Only a foolish longing for things to go back to the way they were. Followed, unfailingly, by the guilt, for allowing…
On Trying To Make Sense…
So, over the past few months, my life can ideally be termed as “a series of unfortunate events”. My life’s been turned upside down in ways I never even dreamed possible. The only definite understanding I can take away from all this is that life will never be the same again. With regard to one…
On Living By Faith…
Lately, I’ve witnessed several circumstances that didn’t really make sense. It was the age-old question – “Where is God when good people suffer?” Brought home all the more clearly when someone close to you is being put through the wringer! So where was He in all the confusion, chaos and pain? Why didn’t He step…
Regarding The Reading List…
Every once in a while, I find that I need to apologise for being a procrastinator! And this is one of those embarrassing moments! Given the fact that I had such a wonderful list of books to read, it’s quite surprising that I’ve managed to get embroiled in this mess again! But for what it’s…
On Letting Go…
So I stand at the threshold of another crossroad. And I find myself struggling with this new avenue. I want to jump up and fight for my rights. I’m fearful of the future. Worst case scenarios crowd my mind and I feel life slipping out of my control. Fear and anger take over and I…
On Father’s Day…Belatedly…
So, between work and fighting off an annoyingly persistent bout of cold, I’ve fallen deplorably behind in my reading. But, on the bright side, I’ve finally gotten around to writing this post for Father’s Day. (I have good intentions! Unfortunately, they don’t get implemented immediately!) So taking a break from the Reading List, here’s to…
On Simplicity…
I was introduced to C. S. Lewis the usual way – through Narnia. It was only later that I discovered he had written several books on various subjects ranging from theology and apologetics to poetry and science fiction. This little book C. S. Lewis – Readings for Meditation and Reflection is an excellent introduction to…
On Reading…
So once again, thanks to Aisi I have a project of sorts to work on! Looking for books to read is never difficult for me; I thrive on buying books and stuffing them into bookcases! Invariably there are those that fall under the radar, so to speak. So when Aisi suggested an e-summer-book-club, I jumped…
On Keeping A Quiet Heart…
A while back I found myself in a curious state – gripped by a sense of righteous anger that my life wasn’t where it ought to be; that there was a better path, but I hadn’t been led down it – so I was plagued with many questions and doubts about my Father’s steering prowess….
On Seeing No End In Sight…
I feel a sense of déjà vu. I know the way forward – to a certain extent – and I want to move ahead, at my pace. Unfortunately not everyone around me is so obliging. So I find that I have to wait; be still and allow things to sort themselves out, rather than make…
On Blog Rolls And New Roads…
And, we’re through! 28 days complete! I would like to thank all those who made it possible (sorry…couldn’t resist!). Seriously though, I am pleased that I’ve managed to stick this one through. And it’s been an amazing journey. Thanks again, Aisi! On another note – there’s a new road to follow. A new phase, new…
On Moving Forward…
So this is it – tomorrow I’ll know which road I’ll be taking. And I’m excited and a little nervous but not worried, thankfully! I still don’t know how things will turn out. But He knows and He’s showing me the way ahead, albeit just a little stretch. Still, it’s the signal to move forward;…
An Excerpt…
From Keep A Quiet Heart by Elisabeth Elliot – “Some of you are perhaps feeling that you are voyaging just now on a moonless sea. Uncertainty surrounds you. There may seem to be no signs to follow. Perhaps you feel about to be engulfed by loneliness. Amy Carmichael wrote of such a feeling when…she had…
On Taking One Step At A Time…
This past week has been quite illuminating. I’ve been looking for peace, for strength in the not-knowing, for patience. But it’s eluded me so far. Until I asked myself – why was I so nervous and anxious? Yes, there are several life-altering changes on the line here, but digging deeper still, I asked again –…
On Waiting For Direction…
Standing at a crossroad and waiting for direction is no fun! It’s barely been 24 hours and I’m champing at the bit! A million ideas flutter in and out of my mind; so many plans and no surety. I want to know what I should be doing next; my mind is busy making so many…
On Too Many Choices…
I’m standing at a crossroad – and the choices before me are several, leaving me unsure about where to go from here. Decisions, decisions! Yet, as I contemplate each choice, wondering about timing and how they all conspired to coincide to complicate my decision-making, I know He is there, standing beside me, and He will…
On Finding The Words To Perfectly Describe My Thoughts…
I look not back: God sees the fruitless efforts, The wasted hours, the sinning and regrets; I leave them all with Him who blots the record, And graciously forgives and then forgets. I look not forward, God sees all the future, The road that long, or short, will lead me home. And He will face…
On Loving Myself…
Here’s a confession – I love my individuality, who I am, what makes me tick, what sets me apart. Simply put – I love what makes me, me! And recently I’ve been stubbornly digging my heels in, refusing to budge from this monument of/to myself that I’ve created! (Ah change – don’t we love it!)…
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