I used to think I needed endurance to run the race and always saw it in terms of the strength to persevere in the face of pain, problems and trials. But I find that I need special grace and a double measure of endurance when the going is hunky dory so to speak! Life is…
On Thinking Right…
There are times when I know what I’m thinking is wrong. My mind turns into a playground for all and sundry to walk in; one thought leads to another and I find myself spiralling downward into a hell of my very own making. It’s frustrating and painful to say nothing of being highly unnecessary! I…
On Epiphanies…
Fear and Worry – that two-headed monster that rears its ghastly head periodically – was at it again. It’s sibling, Doubt, flit in as well, to add to the party! And as frustrating as it was for me to wage this never-ending battle to subdue them, I wondered how frustrating it must be for God…
Regarding An Ordinary Day…
It was a lovely day – a mere 24 hours, but a lifetime of memories – stolen out of our everyday routine. A day of laughter, of enjoying each other’s company, of finding joy in that most mundane of things – grocery shopping! Of watching an old movie together and chuckling at Cary Grant’s antics;…
Regarding The Past…
What is it about the Past that refuses to loosen its clutches on the Present? They say time heals and helps you forget. I wonder – does it really? I’ve seen over and over again, how something small and insignificant can trigger a memory, unleashing an avalanche of feelings and images which you’d thought to…
On Living A Victorious Life…
A verse in Isaiah stopped me in my tracks the other day. It was fairly innocuous on the face of it, but as I stayed my mind and eyes, and looked beyond the printed words, I felt like I’d been douched with a bucket of cold water and warmed by a crackling fire, all at…
On Letting Go…
The perversity of inanimate objects is nothing compared to the perversity of human beings! Some have the knack of making themselves perfectly objectionable for no earthly reason. I was brought up short recently by one such individual and my gut reaction was completely unworthy of the Lord. I wanted to give him a piece of…
Regarding A Higher Calling…
I stand at the little church,Beneath a benign arch.The music gently beckons,As I take a moment to quietMy fluttering heart,And wonder –There is a higher calling;Am I really prepared? With bowed head, IWing a prayer heavenward,And lift my eyes to see,Beyond a seaOf dear faces – encouraging, congratulating –Yours, the dearest of them all. He…
On Choosing To Live…
Sometimes God amazes me at the speed at which He answers my questions. And He doesn’t beat around the bush either! I’d struggled with doubt and fear, completely inundated by a “confusion of heart”. And I wondered why I was unable to find any sort of victory in this area. So I asked my Father…
On Doubt…
When the Promised Land is in sight and things seem to be progressing towards a natural conclusion, that’s when you’re pulled up in your tracks and life hands you a set of incomprehensibly, painful situations. As confusion and doubt war in my mind, I find that nothing is secure. All I believed was solid and…
On Love…
“Never let it end, God,Never – please –All this growing loveliness,All of theseBrief moments of fresh pleasure –Never let it end.Let us alwaysBe a little breathlessAt love’s beauty;Never let usPause to reasonFrom a sense of duty;Never let usStop to measureJust how much to give;Never let usStoop to weigh;Let us live –And live!Please, God,Let our hearts…
On Vulnerability…
The thing about friendship – you really leave yourself defenceless. And it’s hard when you find yourself in such a position – especially when you’ve placed yourself there deliberately! It’s much easier to barricade yourself behind the armour of a dry-tongued, carefree attitude. But once you let your guard down and let someone in! Boy,…
On Waiting…Again…
I waited for you beside the waters But you did not come. And as I gazed at my reflection, I saw the quiet surface, Ripple and furl. Sunlight that had danced his way Through the billows, Now hid himself, Shying away from what the waters showed – me! The still waters turned choppy And I,…
On Working On The Kinks…
I came across this verse the other day – “As for me…I shall be satisfied when I awake in Your likeness.”* And I thought to myself that I wanted this to be my prayer too. So I asked God that He make me more like Him. Which was when I began seeing the real me….
On Being A Fool…
There was a moment of blinding revelation as the rose-tinted glasses were wrenched from my eyes and I saw myself for who I was. And with my next breath I started fervently hoping that God suffers fools gladly. Make that singular with a capital F and you have yours truly! I find that I am…
On Getting Into The Wheelbarrow…
I heard the conclusion of the wheelbarrow story the other day. When the tightrope walker asked for a volunteer to get into the wheelbarrow and be pushed across, several hundred feet off the ground, he was met with complete silence. Finally a little five year-old boy ran forward, got into the wheelbarrow and was pushed…
On Sufficiency And Grace…
I had thought there must be some redeeming quality in me. Some talent or ability that made me useful to God, my family and society; that provided a reason for my very existence. Yet as I read Paul’s second epistle to the Corinthians, a different idea was pushed into my consciousness. “Not that we are…
Through The Long, Dark Night…
They say things come in threes. I beg to disagree – they come in legions! You think the situation is bad and it can’t possibly get worse, when you’re proved wrong and it immediately does! So what does one do when one begins to lose confidence in one’s abilities and strengths? You think you’re good…
An Extract From The Journal…
Dear Diary, Finished reading Battlefield Of The Mind* tonight. Couple of things stuck though. 1. Patience is not the ability to wait but to have a good attitude while waiting. 2. Pride vs. Humility: Pride says, “I’m ready now. I don’t need to wait any more. Why is it taking so long?” Humility says, “God…
On Meeting The Lions Head-On…
So many times I’ve questioned certain circumstances And things I could not understand Many times in trials, weakness blurs my vision Then my frustration gets so out of hand Its then I am reminded I’ve never been forsaken I’ve never had to stand one test alone That’s when I look at all the victories And…
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